So Much of Me Belongs to You

My love for you fell on my heart
like the weight of ten thousand drops
For I awoke from sleep, and I did weep
Lonely is my heart for you

The tears they fill my eyes
as this pen scribles words of love
I want you so
I want you to know
Please don’t go
I love you so
The miles between us they grow
but somehow I’m able to see
that without I’de be
forever alone, forever at sea

I awoke you from sleep
to see if you weep
for my love as I do yours
I needed a gentle word
a soft voice
a tear
to compensate for the emptiness
of your not being here

So much love,
so much crying,
so much caring,
so much loneliness,
so much…….

By Barbara Tremblay Cipak

Love Poem: I had written this poem when I was 19 years old (*ahem, just a few years ago*). This poem is about being far away from someone you love and waking up in the middle of the night to find yourself consumed with loneliness. So you pick the phone up, (middle of the night or not) and call and hope the person you love won’t be upset about disturbing their sleep. More than that, you hope they can’t sleep either. Absence does make the heart grow fonder, but in this case there was already deep love. This love poem is about missing the one you love. It’s a long distance love poem.

She Knew

Before he was born, she knew
His hair would be blond and his eyes would be blue
despite the darker locks of her other two
she knew

A God given blessing, she knew
Her love for her son would reach beyond true
Before her father passed into the dew
he left her life’s secret
his gift being her clue
Though not understanding it then,
Instinctively she knew

Although her little brother passed years before, she knew
Her son was God’s blessing, not sent in his lieu
Each spirit like one but visited by two,
she knew

Her son’s arrival, so glorious a day, she knew
His spirit clearly heavens voice reaching through
She then understood her father’s last clue
“Release yesterday’s pain to the Holy Spirit’s hue”
She always knew

by Barbara Tremblay Cipak, Copyrighted

Poem about a Premonition: “She Knew”…This poem is for my friend and how she expressed the challenging events of her life. Although not her only loves, three of her great loves are her son, her father and her brother. Her father and brother had passed years ago, but now, older and wiser, she is grateful for her blessings and despite her tremendous loss, she is emotionally tenacious and guided by compassion. One interesting tidbit …before her son was born, and after having 3 daughters, she knew she would have a blond haired boy. You guessed it, she did in fact have that boy who happened to have beautiful blond hair. She believed in all her being, that this son was coming to her. It so happened that her son’s arrival into this world occurred when her father was exiting – she knew.

Shadowed Love

I have done my best not to love you
I have tried so hard to make it die
and now my plot it works
but when will I know why

I see your pain,
I feel your tears,
Yet no pain or tears you reveal,
For you have closed your doors to all this strife
so the agony won’t seem real

I love you. It’s true.
Yet, for me, when I love,
it’s easy to say,
the words will flow,
and you feel me in this way

For you, emotion words are not natural
For you, being quiet is fair,
although you love me, you just don’t speak
then I believe you simply don’t care

To save our love from the trap fallen into,
so many times and more,
please see my side and I’ll see yours,
and in doing so
we can meet at love’s door

By Barbara Tremblay Cipak

Shadowed Love: I wrote this poem years ago (many years ago), in my late teens (ions ago!). The poem refers to people who love each other but are unable to effectively communicate and express their love to each other, because they are simply on different wave lengths; one is expressive, the other isn’t. It’s a common tale, and often couples just won’t work it out, so they break up – only to discover that breaking up doesn’t work either. Perhaps the answer is to meet each other half way.

OOPS! I Forgot to Pee

Let’s see
Up at three
Feed the baby
Back under the sheets
For a couple hours of sleep
Kids up for breakee
Gulping my tea desperately
Rush them to school gleefully
Walk the baby expediently
This being my time for me
Back home to clean insistently
Do three loads of laundry
Flee for groceries
Video Game Rentals late constantly
Go to work in my office impatiently
Where things have piled up overwhelmingly
Hubby claims I’m grumpy
Instead of crying I laugh hysterically
Baby bellows loudly
Time to change his nappy
Phone rings twenty times daily
Say I never call a bit angrily
Can’t explain my life so harry
Don’t want it to come out sounding scary
So I apologize gracefully
Kids home noisily
I’m panicky
My office work is not done completely
Oh well, its time to get them to hockey
Feed them first to keep them healthy
Bath time comes busily
Bedtime is love and kisses and favourite stories
Baby sleeping beautifully
My feet are up now restfully
Oops, I forgot to pee!
I assess my day on the toidy
Would I change my life at forty?
Are you kidding
Not this life’s inspired journey!

By Barbara Tremblay Cipak

OOPS, I Forgot to PEE!
(AS SONG LYRICS – Poem Version Above)

(Verse)
Let’s see
Up at three
Feed the baby
Back under the sheets
For a couple hours of sleep
Kids up for breakeeeee
Gulping my tea desperately
Rush them to school gleefully
Walk the baby quickly
This being my time for me
(*sigh noise inserted here*)

(Chorus)
I know its not classy, borders on sassy
But OOPS! I forgot to Pee
Friends say I’m grumpy
Instead of crying I laugh hysterically
(*Note: belly laugh in chorus*)
Crossing my knees so know one sees
Cause OOPS! I forgot to Pee!!

(Verse)
Back home to clean insistently
Do three loads of laundry
Flee for groceries
Video Game Rentals late constantly
Go to work in my office impatiently
Where things have piled up overwhelmingly
Baby bellows loudly
Time to change his nappy!

(Chorus)
I know its not classy, borders on sassy
But OOPS! I forgot to Pee
Friends say I’m grumpy
Instead of crying I laugh hysterically …
(*Note: belly laugh in chorus*)
Crossing my knees so know one sees
Cause OOPS! I need to Pee!!

(Verse)
Phone rings twenty times daily
Say I never call a bit angrily
Can’t explain my life so harry
Don’t want it to come out sounding scary
So I apologize gracefully

( Another Verse..if needed)
Kids home noisily
I’m panicky
My office work is not done completely!
Bedtime is love and kisses and favourite stories
Baby sleeping beautifully
My feet are up now restfully
Whoa, I never did go Pee!

(Chorus)
I know its not classy, borders on sassy
But OOPS! I forgot to Pee
Hubby say’s I’m grumpy
Instead of crying I laugh hysterically
(*Note: belly laugh in chorus*)
Crossing my knees so know one sees
Cause there wasn’t any time to Pee!!….
(*Note: toss in sound of running water at end for effect*)

Poem and/or Song Lyrics: OOPS! I Forgot to Pee: Written for the Busy Moms of the world: You wake up, can’t believe your schedule – and decide to laugh instead of hiding under the covers and crying! Perhaps it’s better not to think about all the things we busy parents have to do..it’s better to just go and do them..A “light-bulb” moment. Shocker.

Monday to Sunday

On a Monday my time is depicted,
the hours are carefully filled,
the day is spent usually working,
and my nights are eventually killed

On Tuesday my thoughts still of working,
again, it’s a Monday too late
my nights are sometimes more active
but that depends on my emotional state

On Wednesday I anticipate little,
though others see midweek to weekend,
I only see Wednesday as halfway,
with four days still left to descend,

On Thursday, people begin smiling
for the weekend is creeping so near,
but I just stare into oblivion
for what’s a weekend without having you here

On Friday, my work is slowed
to a steady but productive pace,
and my thoughts are geared toward the two days,
I don’t have to fight the rat-race

Now Saturday is here,
and what do I do?
As usual I clean,
and sometimes feel blue,
but there is a cure for these feelings,
on such a beautiful day,
one in particular is laughing my time,
with my friends who can take some disappointments away

Sunday I dread, for there’s little to do,
as I spend the last day of this week without you
so Monday to Sunday repeats and recycles
and this journey alone becomes my challenge, my struggle
I miss you. I cry.
I love you so much,
come home to me baby,
I need your sweet touch.

By Barbara Tremblay Cipak

Poem about Missing Someone…Well, I pulled this one out of the dust-bin: Wrote this in the early 80′s, and can see I wasn’t a happy camper at that time. It does seem like an appropriate poem for those who are struggling to get through their week without the person they love. What comes to mind are the spouses of those serving in the Military. I hope they don’t have weeks like this though. If this fits your life right now, I do hope you are able to find some joy eventhough the one you love is away.

Loving You Is All I Wanna Do

(VERSE 1)
When you were born
my face cried all these tears
having you
my fourth child
at forty years
The tears they flowed
not ’cause I was blue
What good had I done to deserve a gift like you

(CHORUS)
‘Cause Loving You is all I wanna do,
My days are filled just watching over you,
My life is full ’cause your smile can melt me too,
Yes loving you is all I wanna do

(VERSE 2)
My precious little boy
you like wiping off my kisses,
playing with your friends,
especially washing the dishes,
get you a cup juice, but you have to pour,
believe you struck gold
with a trip to the dollar store

there’s more
we snuggle bunny at night
“your the best baby and I adhore you”
“your the best mommy and I adhore you,
and you’re the only mommy I have”,
yes my angel those are our words
as we fall asleep cuddled up
mother and son, every night
I love you,
I love you
I love you soooo much,

(CHORUS)
You see, Loving You is all I wanna do,
My days are filled just watching over you,
My life is full ’cause your smile can melt me too,
Yes loving you is all I wanna do

(BRIDGE to CHORUS)
So reach for the sky
to get answers everyday,
Look inside for guidance and just pray,
Hold my hand as you walk your paths today,
and you’ll be ready when I set you on your way,
…’Cause lovin’ you is what I’ll always do,
My days filled just thinkin’ about you,
Given as gift, I’m humbled yes it’s true,
for Loving you is what I’ll always do,
Yes loving you is what I wanna do…

Love Always, Mom

by Barbara Tremblay Cipak

Poem, From Mother to Son: My youngest child and I have a little saying that may go down in history in our family as a “family treasure”. Our closests friends have heard this saying for years in our home. Since my sweet angel was little I would start the sentence, “Loving you?”..then wait for his response, which was always, “is all I wanna do”. Well you guessed it, I had to carve this little gem in stone, in the form of Country Song Lyrics. So long as I’m his mother, and he is my son, this is our little peace of heaven on earth: “Loving you is all I wanna do”.

If I Could Fly Tonight

If I could fly tonight,
To places I’ve never seen,
My arms with the power to witness first hand
great deeds accomplished by woman and man
or worse know suffering,
What would I choose,
soaring above these incredible views,
peering below
my landing, my voice
where do I go,
what is my choice,
Would I plan to see such glorious sites,
As the Seven Wonders of the World by night,
The Taj Mahal, The Northern Lights,
Angel Falls or World Castles by name,
The great cathedrals from London to Spain,
I could take the train from Koblenz to Koln
See the Ancient Ruins in Rome,
Ride a Gondola in Venice today,
but being away, almost gone astrayI
I’d miss what is always real
So I wouldn’t need to fly this far
since what I seek is where you are
You’re the sight I’d choose to see
with you is where I’d want to be
I’d choose you.
The love I know.
hold you close
the tears would flow
we’de share a tea
and our company
we could say a little or a lot
thank you for the lessons taught
memories kept to bring me home
these wings a gift for when I’ve flown,
feeling at peace, all would be right,
this is the flight plan I chart tonight

By Barbara Tremblay Cipak
If I Could Fly Tonight, on Youtube

Poem for Distant Relative: I wrote this for my mother who doesn’t live very close by. We see each other though of course, but I was thinking, if I were a bird tonight, where would I fly to first.